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Comparative Study Brought Me To Islam

 

By SAFIYAH JOHNSON

 

 

In 1992, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. She was like an angel, I had never seen a more beautiful baby, and she seemed too good to be true. She was. In November of the same year, when baby Tina was just 5 months old, she died of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (also known as SIDS). I was devastated, and angry, I didn’t understand how God could take my child when there were babies in the world who were suffering. At the funeral people assured me, "You’ll see her in heaven someday." I would just say, "How do you know I’m going to heaven?" Well, I decided to set out to find the true religion, which would put me on the path to see my daughter again. Having been raised a Christian, I could no longer blindly accept the religion as I could before. I needed answers, I needed something to make sense. Every night for two years I would pray the same thing.

 

"Dear God. I know you already know what is in my heart, but I am hurting. You took away my baby when I wasn’t looking. I didn’t even get to say goodbye. I want to see her again. So, could you please show me the right path? The one you want me to take? I can’t believe that Christianity is what you want of me. It doesn’t make sense to me. So please show what the right religion is so I can get started. Thank you very much. Oh, and could you send me a Husband so I can have more babies? Thanks God, please take good care of my baby, tell her I love her and I miss her very much."

 

By the time I finished, I would be in tears. I studied many religions, but none could hold my interest. I began to think that God had forgotten about me, that he had more important things to do. Then one day, when I was working in a bar, I met another woman who worked there. We became friends, and she told me about her "Grand Plan". She asked me if I would go to Malaysia to set up an import/export contact for her. She couldn’t leave her children behind, and she would pay me, plus cover all of my expenses. I said, "When do I leave?"

 

I got on the plane with only two suitcases, my purse and no knowledge of how I was going to accomplish my goals, let alone where I was going to stay. I was so excited! I arrived in Malaysia in the middle of Ramadan. Everyone was so nice to me, and I was so paranoid. I kept thinking people were going to mug me, or maybe something worse. But not only were they just being nice, they didn’t want anything in return. Never have I met a more wonderful group of people than when I was in Malaysia. I asked the cab driver why everyone was in such a good mood, he said, "This is Ramadan, and whenever we do a good deed, Allah will reward us double." I said, "Cool God." At the hotel, I engaged in many arguments with the bell boys about which religion is better.

 

Islam vs. Christianity. I didn’t win one fight. They asked me questions about my own religion I couldn’t answer. And why on earth was I defending a religion I don’t even believe in ???? They would take me out to eat, and not eat. The women wore long sleeves and scarves. If I lost my temper, they would only walk away.

 

This was too much. Every time I asked them why they did something, all they could say was "Because the Qur’an tells us to". Wrong answer for an American like me. That’s like my mom telling me I could not stay up late "Because I said so". I needed concrete answers. So, with the help of a Malay friend, I bought a Qur’an, and a few other books about Islam. I locked myself in my room for two weeks. I would not come out for anything or anyone. I read the Qur’an and the books. After 48 hours I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I had found what I had searched for. This is what God wants me to do. But there was one problem.

 

It wasn’t Islam’s view of Jesus. It wasn’t even the fact that I would have to throw away every article of clothing I owned and start to wear an entirely different style of dress. The problem was how was I going to get my mother to accept the fact that I was a Muslim? I knew this was not going to be easy. I agonized over the decision, not able to eat, concentrate, or even sleep peacefully. The entire time I agonized I had the same nightmare, that an Angel had my child in her arms and there were devils (Jinn) after her. I spent all night fighting off these awful creatures. They wanted me to stay the way I saw, and the Angel wanted me to become a Muslim. They were fighting over me. I would wake up drenched with sweat and tears, and often bruised with no idea where the bruises came from. One night I was fighting this jinn and it scratched my face. I remember saying, "Oh, no you didn’t! Don’t you know better than to scratch a woman’s face?" and I kicked it. Finally, after a night of fighting (two weeks of this), I woke up out of bed screaming, "Alright I will become a Muslim! I’ll do it today!" I immediately felt the most incredible peace throughout my whole body. I had never felt anything like it before or since. I knew Allah was pleased with me.

 

I went downstairs to the bellboys who had worked so hard to turn me into a Muslim to announce that I was ready to "take the plunge" only to have them tell me "No"! They told me that Islam wasn’t something to be taken lightly.

 

Once you become a Muslim, you are a Muslim for life. Then they said "Oh, what happened to your face?" I looked in the mirror and my face was scratched! I told them of my dreams and that was my first lesson about Jinn. Then they agreed that I should be a Muslim right away, and they took me to Perkim, a Muslim Organisation in Kuala Lumpur for new Muslims. I took my Shahadah on June 15, 1994.

 

I have never looked back since.

 

[sAFIYAH JOHNSON used to work with ISNA. She has recently moved to Milwaukee, Wisconsin in the USA following her marriage on May 29, 1999. She is planning to start classes at the American Open University for Islamic Studies.]

 

[Hibo]

Mashalaah sister! That's great! Inshallah, I want to see you some day, I live in the U.S. also. I also go to ISNA, so maybe I could see you there next time.

 

Salaams

[Hibo]

Salaam All

 

Masha'allah what a great story

And also, very touching story.

 

salaam

[LadyFatima]

Wow....Nice story walaahi!

[imam.abdullah]

I really like your story and its intresting story keep it reall and practice your islamic religion iam the imam of the mosque of

[RandyMoss]

I'm happy that the sister found the true riligion. Congrats sister you have the biggest gift of them all and thats Islam the true path.

 

As for the child that She lost. She grieved her because she was a mother. But I would like to remind us all that we should not grieve and cry over the people that we lose. The reason being this is a temporary place that is Earth. And remember if any of you lose a child or a close person that they are Allah's property and not yours. everything that we have comes from Allah. He gives and he takes away. People seem to think that money and children and things of that sort are their property when they realy arent. We must know that everything comes from allah and whatever os on this Earth we are going to leave it on Earth.

 

 

i heard a speech by a shiekh about the fear of death. 1400 years ago the prophet Muhammad "SAW" said that the whole world is going to take part in the destruction of the muslims. He gave the example of a piece of meat being thrown into a pack of dogs. The companions said. Is this because they are few. he said no. There's many of them. He said that they are like foam of a river. And They have a love for this life and fear death so they are weak.

 

this means that we dont want to die in defending their our religion and our people. This is the state of Muslims today. The whole world wants to destroy us and we are more than a Billion people and like one of every three or four peopleis a muslim. and we are weak because we love this life and we dont want to leave it and love the women the cars the $$$.

 

We have to increase our Imam to the point that we dont love life like we do these days my brothers and sisters. Shaytaan wants us to love this life and those who follow him and his soulsdesires will be misled. We have a better life that is waiting for us and we should love that more. Because everything on this earth is just temporary. May Allah save our souls from desiring the things in this world that will lead us asstray.

 

Assalamu Alaykum.

[Hibo]

[Hibo]

Mansha'Allah That was a wonderful Story!

 

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