Apology to My Unborn

[SeeKer]

Sometimes one seeks solace in words. I find this

to climatically divulge and assuage the whirlwind of emotions I feel when left to my thoughts. Hope you enjoy it.

I fear that you will never sleep

that like these fingers long and too thin

to hold rings or commitments

you will inherit your mother’s insomnia

your father's restless spirit

 

Child, I wish I could quiet all your questions

tell you the exact number of stars in the sky

Wish I could show you where the moon goes at sunrise

I want to give you one morning worth rising for

I pray that you will close your eyes

see the world through the only thing

I have fit to pass down to you

this heart of a dreamer

 

But I want you stronger sooner

want you kind and brave

want you unafraid to fight

for what you believe and need

want you beautiful and free

want you nothing like your mother

this girl trembling before each new day

this girl frightened of herself

 

love this girl who finds the word ‘woman’

a cloak too heavy to don most days

you deserve someone who wears the moniker like banner

carries easy like sun in summer

but, child, what can I tell you of peace

when you were probably conceived in a cacophony of questions

 

Still, I think of you as possible

can feel the breath of God light against your skin

can hear you, softness, eyes closed laughing

real as the beating staccato against my chest

 

I wish that we are not too much like shadow and brick

voices thrown against walls

these hands are tired of building

 

I want you to like me

To know me

To know me now

In moments like this

your mother lays awake

watching, yet, another morning from the wrong side

practicing slow this breathing that will one day usher you into this world

 

 

I still fear that you will never know sleep

but I know that I need your laughter

need the gentle curve of your fingers

need your eyes locked on mine

need you here,

now

for balance

 

I still think you deserve more than

this threat of me as your mother

still attempting her own world of colored things

but child, just promise me that you will be, eventually

I need your possibility

like I need a night worth sleeping for

[Nematoda]

what a poem is all i can say

[Aliya_001]

i love this poem , her performance of it on def poetry was beautiful x

[Muriidi]

I still think you deserve more than

this threat of me as your mother

 

my unborn child said:i hope i was an accident .. a result of "lust"

if i was planned i will never forgive you!

how could you bring anyone into this world on purpose?!

[Malika]

^Interesting..

 

This poem expresses,a yearning of 'all mothers' to be accepted,acknowledge,noticed,even thanked but alas!

Somalidu wexeey tirada 'ilmaha adaa dalee iyagu kume dalin'[sp]..'You gave birth to the child,the child didn't give birth to you'..How will a child ever understand,her/his mothers yearning for their love,acceptance and furthermore,the pain staking journey of raising them.

 

[Paragon]

Lol@muridi.

[hodman]

This poem truly expresses all the doubts and hopes and prayers that accompany a pregnancy. The fear intermingled with hope that this being that kicks around in your womb will the best parts of you that will cure all your pain and fulfill all your dreams while hoping that you are strong enough to be the beacon of all that is good and noble in this miracle that you might not deserve

[SeeKer]

Its amazing what women take from this poem.

 

Interesting take @ hodman and Malika.

[hodman]

What can I say Seeker it's that maternal tug activated by the poem

[General Duke]

I love my mum, she is the best that ever lived. She knows how I feel, which makes me at peace.

[FatB]

waw... dear dad!

[Somalina]

Great poems...you will only understand it deeper when you have a baby growing inside you...

i have to call my mom now...