Suffocated

[Ameen]

Im suffocated, I just cant seem to breath

Mixed emotions got me thinking its time for me to leave

She spots me in my car and says, “we need to sit and talk”

I tell her just wait,

matter fact, STOP!

I got a lot of things on my mind so don’t push me off the line

 

She looks me with fiercefull eyes and says “boy, its due or die”

“Make a decision, do you wanna be mine?”

I tell her, I need a woman who will help me find paradise

She said, “I know you hesitant cause I don’t wear hijab but I can change if you’re patient enough”

I said, its not about that

Rather, I need you to take some time and wrap your heart around Allah

After that, I’ll always be here and we can talk

“But I love you”,

And I love Allah so love who I love and we will be alright

 

That was six months ago and I broke her heart

I’ve been suffocating ever since cause my organs had rebelled

I seek Your mercy dear Lord grant me some help

 

I hadn’t seen her since so I wondered is she alright

But just the other night, I spotted her while I was in the ride

Her beautiful educated mind had been wrapped with the scarf of life

Although it was dark, her face shined with faithful light

I whispered to myself, “O’Allah, forgive her and admit her into Your paradise”

[Haneefah]

Haraaam. Now, can you go and unbreak her heart.

 

P.S. How do you think Allah views a slave of His undermining and rejecting the love of another for the sole reason that he perceives them as lacking in Allah's love? How do suppose the questioning will take place? Can you now discern a particular quality (I won't say it) of weakness embedded in such attitude? So I wonder, if it is the realization of this quality that made the author suffocate or the actual loss.

[Ameen]

Go and unbreak her heart? Ya'Haneefah, you know better . Only patience will lead me to find the diamond I've been searching for and as for today, I’ll lean back, counting the stars that appear in the darkness of the night while I await the PM's of a woman whom I presume to be among the best of all the women

And if she fails to HIT me up, then "Suffocate" part TWO will be created.

 

P.S. You asked, how do you think Allah views a slave of His undermining and rejecting the love of another for the sole reason that he perceives them as lacking in Allah's love? The answer: ‘The author’ did not want shaitan to deceive him about accepting such a woman as the partner who will accompany him on his journey to meet Allah. When the timing was right, he advised her with gentle words and walked away from the situation.

 

You asked, how do suppose the questioning will take place? The answer: 'The author' hopes Allah will spare him of such questions.

 

You asked, Can you now discern a particular quality (I won't say it) of weakness embedded in such attitude? The answer: No comment

 

You asked, so I wonder, if it is the realization of this quality that made the author suffocate or the actual loss. The answer: The former and not the later.

[Haneefah]

Heh. I too hope Allah spares him from any questioning he isn't well prepared for.

[Al-Muminah]

'Tis sweet, 'tis very sweet mashaAllaah.