Did guy y played me?

[finestsista2005]

Hey ya'll i am here scratching my head thinking what happened to this part of my life. My love life...anyways here it goes....

 

I always have had hard time letting people now about my feeling...meaning if i guy says he likes me and i see him as a brother....it is hard for me to tel him tht. One eg. This guy (guy X)liked me alot....he know that my mind was foced on other stuff...but he thought with all the money he can spend on me....da rides he can give me that i would see him. He told me how he felt "ILoveU" so many times. I enjoyed the ride to school...I enjoyed the food when i was hangry....but that was all. I never gave him kiss or anything. He even wanted to buy me a car if i go out with him. Anways...he was not what i looking for! I really was hurt i couldn't feel the same way. Morely i hated the fact i lead him on for 6 months...without promisin anything..but still taking advantage of the rides. Finaly, i brought all my strengh told him....i don't feel same way...and i always be here for u. He was realy hurt....I left him in the car stunnd went to my gals house even though he said..don't leave i don't want to be alone.....i felt wat he meant....read the other scene.

 

I met this guy .....from the start....i knew i liked him.....everything about him matter of fact. to me he was funy, educated,cute, seemed to have good personaly. We went out to one date..we had fun...we liked it...we talked on the phone....could see he was really interested to get to know me....this is the same time i am talking to the nice guy...to me i thought it doesnt' matter because the nice guy i see him as brother. Anways the nite i told the nice guy we can't be nothing more....i invited the guy i liked to come visit me...he lives about 20 min way..in another city. The hole nite...i felt sick...for what i put through guy X(nice guy..concidering...he bought me flowers the day before)...wallahi...i had no physical attraction what so ever with guy X(nice guy)....anyway...guy Y..he had crazy chemistry, i was so attracted to him, the way he talkes, looks, gets mad everything drove me crzy. On the phone when he was coming down..i told him..we be hanging with my girl and her guy at her house.....but it turned out she wasn't home. He reached my city to find the plane changed...he got soo pissed off..calling me a lier. I haven't seen him for a month...he was saying he is gonna go back to his city...when he called me on the cell. Despirate to see him....i told to come to my house that my father wasn't going to come he went away with his friends to another city. He sweared me and i didn swear....(feeling bad). He came to my house...i quickly put him in the basement....wallahi..afried dad would walk in....then i told him the story...we left after 1min..he run out. He didn't say anything...that incident....we went to a restuarant...we were having so much fun..he was telling me that he likes me alot...and talking about our relationship...then i looked at my watch and told him..how i got it as a gift...he guessed it was a guy..then i just said.."i felt sorry for that guy that i broke his heart...two days a go".....his hole attitude changed.....he didn't want to kis me anymore...he said i was playing him.....i swore to him i wasn't. He brought good q ...why did i except his gift..if i didn't want him...true!...anyways..we started arguing..then...he brought up about me lying about my dad not being home..and my friends.....he said he didn't trust...me. He took me home...there was black car coming out of the drive way...he said are they somalians.,..even though i new they were...i pretened they were not..because i didn't want to let him go mad....they were...he got sooo scared...he speedeed out...so they wouldn't catch him. He yelled at me..saying what if that was my dad....my mentality is so different then his...i was like chill guy...we were not doing anything first ..second...u made ur self suspicious. He was so mad...i went home...didn't call him...after 2 days call him...he said.."there never be us"......concidence.. i don't know...did i gt played? funny wallahi i was scared of that..."what goes around comes around"...damn why did it had to be da man i liked. His older than me 8 years. He also said i was a minor...hated it...but tried to appoligize it is not working out on the phone. This man to discribe is the business type...clean cut brother. He said he doesn't trust me..that when someone lies ....that is a turn off.. I lied..not purposely...but i wanted him to come after he threated to go back.

 

My question to the nomads

 

to guy X....he doesn't want to be friends .....how should i make up for all the pain i caused....what should i do to pay back for leading him on?

 

How should i appoligize..without giving hint ..i want him?

 

It seems all my girls can keep there man....what have i done in these two scenarios..that was No's.?

 

Guy Y..do you think it's still possible to try work thinks out? If yes...How should i show him i am not minor..that i am mature?

 

Guy....how should i try to get him back without lookign desprate.....? He told me he wants only to be friends...he made that affermitive(clear)

 

Gals and Guys help me for once be strong enough to straighten things out get what i want please feel free to give me seggetions....walahi..i never wanted to turn the scenerious this way. Waht am i doin wrong?