"just be grateful to Allah that you are not in my position
I swear no one has even been through like my situation
oh god, why didn’t you give me the answer to her question?
why didn’t you stop her from listening to another suggestion?"
brother don't question god just except: if you gave your self over like that then thier are others willing to do the same for you. just be happy you had those times of joy and love and fish like the rest to find your reflection in the sea.