What can one do if your mental disorder deteriorates when you practice islam? ocd gets worse, poore attention becomes confusion, lack of motivation makes you despair (until despairing itself disappeares and nothing is left, no emotions, apathy)? if no one in your family know enough about religion, and your network consists of few family members and health care workers, and the only solution you have is to try and enjoy live by relaxing and enjoying some contriversial things in islam sometimes like music, outdoor activities that require to wear pants (im a girl, wear mostly skirts) and eating non halal slaughter meat, cant reconsile with myself on these topics evendo i see this could emprove my mental health, but the reason is getting clearer to me its forced thoughts that say this is haram because of my ocd, rather than by choice or iman.if this makes any sense.
